Look Both Ways

by Sonja Malton

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released March 16, 2017

Additional vocals (I Don't Mind): Lynn Scott
Album photography: Libby Askin
Mixing and Mastering: Eric Duerrstein

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Track Name: Standing Still
There once was a time I was trembling with all my clothes on
And using all my will
Well look at me now; I'm standing here with all my clothes gone
And I can say at least I'm still standing
But I'm standing still
I'm standing still

And I'm trying but don't know where I should be moving to
So I'm crying 'cause I'm afraid I might be losing who I am

There once was a time I wasn't looking for salvation
Just running forward
And every step was free
Well look at me now on a stead diet of self-deprecation
I've somehow chosen to stand frozen
And don't know what will become of me

And I'm falling just out of reach of she who I should be by now
And I'm calling out her name but she's too far away to figure out
I'm just standing still
Standing still

And I'm frowning but you know I never mean to be unkind
I'm just drowning in the fear of being left behind
'Cause I'm standing still

There was a time when I still wished upon the stars
There was a time when I could smile without trying to
There was a time before I got all of my scars
And before I was afraid I might be losing you

So take my hand and take me with you
'Cause I'm standing still.
Track Name: Simple Song
Here I go again
Here I try to make something beautiful out of confusion
And I remember when there were simple tunes
With no deeper meaning and music was easy
As easy as pots and spoons

Everyone has scars
Everyone has times of insanity and of humanity
Everyone has stars that they wish upon
And wars they are fighting with nobody lighting the way
For what's right or wrong

Take a look in the mirror
The path has been clear all along

And I know someday I may find
There is no more to life than what's standing in front of me
And although I go out of my mind
Trying to reason with time it will always catch up with me
There's no pause or rewind
You just love every moment you spend in the sun
So this time the song is a simple one
This song is a simple one

Mmm...

Here I go again
Here I try reminding myself that I'm one in a million
And we all need a hand when the road is long
And what can I do but just strike up a tune
And invite you to sing along?

Bring your pots and your spoons and we'll take on the world
With a simple song
All we need is a simple song
Mmm...
Track Name: Stay Awake
I was walking through the snow
I was humming along to rhythm of my
Boots underneath my feet
I was walking - to where? I don't know
On a cold grey night, down a cold grey street

Came like shadows over my eyes
Came like puppets to put on a show
What if I'm going crazy this time?
Came like pleasure in clever disguise
So to soften the blow, but I know my own mind

I've been through enough wretchedness
To know what a test it is

So stay awake with me
Say what's been has been, but it won't be again
I know I won't sleep
So stay awake with me

It begins with applause and the lights going dim
Quickly comes the prologue, in no time
I've been willfully stolen away
I unfurrow my brow, and I unclench my chin
Well the show is begun, so I might as well stay
And the show must go on, so I might as well play

But I've withstood enough sticks and stones
To know I can't do this alone

So stay awake with me
Say what's been has been, but it won't be again
I know I won't sleep
So stay awake with me

Open the curtain and what will I find? Is it all right to cry?
Go through the motions, and read all my lines as the night passes by me
And I know there's no going back there's no changing the part I played
But maybe it's just enough to know that someone will

Stay awake with me
Say what's been has been, but it won't be again
I know I won't sleep
So stay awake with me

I was walking through the snow
I was drumming along to the rhythm of
My heart on its unsteady beat
I was watching the spring come in slow
And wondering why I don't get some sleep
Just get some sleep

Stay awake with me
Stay awake with me
Stay awake with me
Track Name: Grateful Song
I don't have a car
But I can ride my bike fairly well
And I don't mind the rain; not at all
And I am healthy as far as I can tell
So why complain?

I don't own a house
I can barely pay my rent often times
But I have got a room of my very own
Where I can sit and write all my lovesick rhymes

So how can I complain, when there's food for eating?
How can I complain, when there's air for breathing?
How can I complain, when there's songs to sing?
How can I complain about anything?

I have lots of days that aren't so great
Where I don't feel I'll ever get very far
Where I don't like my face; not at all
But then I turn to my non-judgemental old guitar

And how can I complain, when music is singing?
How can I complain? I've got this chance at living
How can I complain, when there's joy to bring?
How can I complain about anything, anything?

I've got a bed for sleeping, and a heart that's beating
A passion lighting, a fire igniting
A song worth writing, a love worth fighting for

I don't have a car
But I don't mind the rain; not at all
Track Name: I Don't Mind
With falling rain comes falling faces
And falling chances of going places
But I don't mind, I don't mind the weather

With rising puddles come rising troubles
But you and I've got sighs and cuddles
So I don't mind, I don't mind the weather

'Cause it's a lovely day for watching movies
It's a lovely day for having nowhere else to be
We close all of the blinds and sink into the cushions
It's a lovely day as long as you're with me

We lose all power and spend an hour
Playing cards and "Would you Rather?"
But I don't mind, I don't mind the weather

Outside it's pouring but we're ignoring
And time with you is never boring
So I don't mind, I don't mind the weather

'Cause it's a lovely day for being lazy
It's a lovely day for having nothing much to do
Maybe later on we'll go outside and try out kissing in the rain
It's a lovely day as long as I'm with you
As long as I'm with you

So I don't mind
I don't mind
I don't mind
I don't mind

It's a lovely day for telling stories
It's a lovely day to have your smile within my view
So try to stay perfectly still
It's a lovely as long as I'm with you
Track Name: Darkness Come
It's time to put the lining in your coat
The cold is coming; The cold is coming soon
It's time to find your mittens and your scarf
The leaves are falling; The buds no longer bloom

I'm scared of feeling low when cold wind starts to blow
It happens almost every time
The sun's too far away and the whole world turns to grey
And every day's an upward climb

But maybe
Maybe
This time I'll be fine, 'cause...

You are the sunlight to me
When winter makes me cold and numb
Then you are all I need
So let darkness come, 'cause love,
You are the sun

I'll crawl into my room and fashion a cuccoon
And sleep a week, or maybe three or four
But then you will appear and whisper in my ear
Remind me there's still something I adore

So maybe
Maybe
This time I'll smile a little more, 'cause...

You are the sunlight to me
When winter makes me cold and numb
Then you are all I need
So let darkness come, 'cause love
You are the sun
You are the sun
You are the sun
Hmm...

It's time to put the lining in your coat
But I'm not worried; Not a bit this time
It's time to find your mittens and your scarf
But I'll stay warm as long as you stay mine

So let darkness come
Track Name: Let Me Be
Collected boxes and I packed them up
With memories and bubble wrap
Made sure that they remained the right side up
With "Caution" written on the back
"Should not be shaken"

I went to sleep that night
I turned out all the lights thinking the coast was clear
'Cause I'd stacked them tight under my bed
And said "Now there's no room for monsters here"
I was mistaken

So come out, come out, wherever you may be
I think I'm ready now for you to come and find me

Too many nights have I been terrified to fall asleep
Too many fights have I had with something inside of me
Controlling, holding memories I don't want to keep
So tired of hiding out, so let the walls come down
If I let you in, do you promise now to let me be?

A castle made of sand
So many years ago and yet so few it seems
A wave came crashing and I watched it fall
And still I see it in my dreams:
The Desecration

Oh, how I wept that day
As it was swept away into the angry tide
And I've tried to build again, and then again
But there was nowhere left to hide
From devastation

So come on, come on, there is no castle wall
All my defences gone, but this time I refuse to fall

Too many nights have I been terrified to fall asleep
Too many fights have I had with something inside of me
Controlling, holding memories I don't want to keep
So tired of hiding out, so let the walls come down
If I let you in, do you promise now to let me be?
Let me be

Well it's been long enough, and I've had enough
I made a vow, 'cause I'm stronger now
The scars are deep from what you've done to me
But once the fear is gone I'll be moving on

Too many nights have I been terrified to fall asleep
Too many fights have I had with someone inside of me
Controlling, holding memories I don't want to keep
So tired of hiding out, so let the walls come down
I'm gonna let you in if you promise now
To leave me.
Track Name: No Need to Hurry
I find my-
self saying the word "I" far too much
I'll step back
So tell me about your day

Tell me three
Things that made you happy
Since I last saw you,
And smile at me
Smile at me

And feel the pull of the world
As we twist and we twirl
Through a new slew of worryings
Feel the slow moving hands
There is no need to hurry, love

You and I
Have had many sleepless nights
Spent saying "take your time.
I'm here, you can cry on me"

You touch your nose
To my nose and music grows
To swelling crescendos
Point your feet toward me and dance with me
Dance with me

And hear the pull of the world
As we whoosh and we whirl
Through a new slew of worryings
Hear the slow moving hands
There is no need to hurry, love

Love there's no need to hurry

Found today
Three strands of hair turned grey
Watch how our laugh lines deepen
Keep laughing and age with me
Age with me

And see the pull of the world
As we slowly unfurl
Through our new slew of worryings
See the slow moving hands
There is no need to hurry

And feel the joy of the world
As we dance and we twirl
Through the new years unravelling
Feel your hand placed in mine
Let us not miss a moment
There's no need to hurry, love.
No need to hurry.
Track Name: Wedding Song
Let's pack our bags lightly
We've got a long way to go
To the tip top end of the world
Seems like a lovely night
To have my life completed by a beautiful, beautiful girl

So you grab so blankets and food and I,
I'll bring the poetry and you,
You'll dance out under the moon and I,
I'll smile incessantly
And the world will turn discreetly
And we'll grow old so sweetly

Well you know I'm slightly broken
But you like to keep the pieces
Just to have to hold
So you take mine and I'll take yours
We'll keep each other walking down this forever road

So you grab so blankets and food and I,
I'll bring the poetry and you,
You'll dance out under the moon and I,
I'll smile incessantly
And the world will turn discreetly
And we'll grow old so sweetly

And we are not without flaws
But beauty never seems to be
And love is not without laws
But darling, lay them on me
'Cause now I never have to live a moment without you again
My oh my, well pinch my skin I must be dreaming

Let's pack our bags lightly
We'll have more than we need
Tucked in between unspoken rhymes
Isn't it a lovely night?
'Cause from now, 'til ever after, I am yours and you are mine.
You are mine.
I am yours and you are mine.

So we'll grab some blankets and food and we'll
Make time for poetry and we
We'll dance out under the moon and we
We'll laugh incessantly

And the world will turn discreetly
And we could not love more deeply
And we'll grow old so sweetly
Because, love, you complete me